A digital actuality (VR) work premiering on the South by Southwest (SXSW) pageant in Austin, Texas will let viewers expertise the story of Carolyn Mercer, a transgender girl within the UK who survived electroshock conversion remedy meant to “treatment” her gender dysphoria as an adolescent.
Within the Present of Being (9 March-11 March), by the Texas-born, Los Angeles-based director and digital storyteller Cameron Kostopoulos, is the second VR challenge they’ve created with the goal of serving to audiences perceive the transgender expertise. “Proper now, with how beneath assault the trans and queer communities are, it’s actually essential to achieve throughout the aisle and to ask folks to see out of your perspective,” Kostopoulos tells The Artwork Newspaper.
Along with the VR components, the work includes audiences carrying haptic vests, sleeves and gloves in order that they’ll really feel the rhythm of Mercer’s heartbeat and respiration as her story is recounted, in addition to the tremors she felt for many years after receiving electroshock remedy. The method, which concerned her being strapped to a chair and shocked as photos of ladies’s clothes had been projected on the wall in entrance of her, affected Mercer for many years, inflicting her to shake uncontrollably each time she considered it, and main her to cover her true id till she was in her 70s.
A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
Those that participate within the work is not going to really feel the identical sort of ache Mercer did, however will expertise a full physique vibration that’s “fairly intense”, Kostopoulos says. However in addition to simulating worry and ache, the haptics within the work may also “create a sense of defiance”, the director provides, in addition to the sense of liberation, peace and restoration Mercer felt when she lastly embraced life as a lady.
“The message that our piece ends on within the ultimate title display is that conversion remedy isn’t remedy,” Kostopoulos says. “You may’t change somebody’s sexuality, you possibly can’t change somebody’s gender id. You may’t make somebody be cis, you possibly can’t make somebody be binary in the event that they’re non-binary. It’s not one thing that must be cured.”
Mercer’s story is especially well timed for the reason that administration of US President Donald Trump has been transferring to erase the popularity of transgender people as a matter of public coverage, placing an already susceptible neighborhood at additional threat. In accordance with a nationwide psychological well being survey carried out by the Trevor Venture in 2024, 90% of LGBTQ+ younger folks mentioned their well-being was negatively impacted by current political discourse, and 46% of transgender and nonbinary younger folks had significantly thought-about suicide previously 12 months. Mercer herself solely lately began talking about her experiences publicly, holding her true id a secret from even household and buddies for many of her life. “That is why it’s essential for us to be sharing this story, as a result of, if she hadn’t come ahead, there’s so many like these which might be simply by no means advised,” Kostopoulos says.

A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
The format of VR additionally permits tales like Mercer’s to be shared in a extra visceral method, one thing Kostopoulos found with their first challenge, Physique of Mine, which allowed customers to enter the physique of one other gender. It gained the Particular Jury Award at SXSW in 2023 and was proven in Venice that very same 12 months.
“Immersive artwork could be a actually highly effective device,” Kostopoulos says, in comparison with media like movie or audio solely, which keep a third-person perspective and may come throughout as confrontational, particularly round delicate topics like gender id. “It’s very simple to cease a film or to press pause at a podcast or shut a tab. However while you’re in an immersive expertise,” they clarify, “you are feeling such as you’re really there, you’re so more likely to have interaction with it and hear and be receptive to what you’re listening to.”
This was true with Physique of Mine, which Kostopoulos says was proven to audiences everywhere in the world, from dad and mom who weren’t very receptive to their youngsters’s chosen pronouns to 80-year-old trans ladies who had been dwelling life on their phrases.

A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
“Apparently sufficient, the individuals who had been most emotional had been really the cisgender audiences,” Kostopoulos says. “I feel it’s as a result of, regardless that these tales are particular, they’re additionally very common. Physique of Mine is greater than gender dysphoria, it’s nearly having a physique and feeling comfy in your physique. And this new piece, it’s a narrative about conversion remedy, however greater than something, it’s a narrative about authenticity and being your self it doesn’t matter what the world tells you to be.”
Like Physique of Mine, which has now been distributed to LGBTQ+ centres in 40 states throughout the US together with VR headsets, Kostopoulos hopes to share Within the Present of Being—which was co-produced by the New York-based VR exhibition and manufacturing area Onassis ONX—with a bigger viewers. The goal is to “present people who find themselves making choices about entry to healthcare and gender affirming care” what’s at stake, they are saying, particularly since it’s nonetheless authorized in half of US states to carry out conversion remedy on youngsters, “and that should change”.
Within the Present of Being, 9 March-11 March, South by Southwest, Austin, Texas
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